Stress Upon Stress Upon Stress

P1360424 This morning was stressful.  As in rip your hair out, go running down the street screaming, hide under your desk in the fetal position while sucking your thumb stressful.  I wrote out a whole post about one of the major causes of the stress, but then thought better of it.  It’s something personal that I’m not quite comfortable sharing completely just yet.  Needless to say, I’ve been on edge.

I guess not sleeping hasn’t helped either.  The past 3 nights I’ve gone to sleep at midnight or later only to get up at 6:30am the following morning.  I’m tired, but I just can’t seem to drag myself into bed earlier.  I feel like I need to do just one more thing before hitting the sheets.  At the same time, I feel like my To Do list is a giant treadmill.  Complete one item and another thing gets tossed on top.

I’ve been stress-eating again, too.  Being tired and stressed makes me feel hungry.  Feeling hungry makes me eat.  And eat.  And eat.  Then suddenly I feel sick to my stomach.  Yet, sitting behind a desk all day leaves me little other stress outlets.  Luckily, a few years back, I got a pedal exercise machine that fits under my desk.  (I think it’s this one, but that’s unavailable for purchase.)  I’ve taken to pedaling my stress away so I guess that’s healthy.  Just put all of my stress into my legs and pump those pedals until my muscles ache.

I think tonight I’ll try to get to sleep early (translation: about 10pm) and will try to calm down some more.  Stressing out about the situation isn’t making the situation any better.  Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have some pedaling to do.